Chapter Twenty Three- Fatty Boom Boom- May 22nd 2018 5:56pm

Today, I went and saw a Nutritionist. My doctor thought it would be a good idea, because of my PCOS and the weight I’ve gained in the last 12 months. I originally went there to get blood test results, and he suggested this. It was kind of a waste of time, the nutritionist even said so, confused why my GP suggested me to see her.

I told her my struggle with my weight, and the reason I have put on, and that was because I stopped taking my birth control pill. When on my pill, every month there is a few days mid-cycle where I go into a deep abyss and my depression takes over, and I find it hard to function. That’s when I tend to loose weight, but being skinnier is not worth the emotional trauma. I am an emotional eater, and tend to binge eat, to the point of vomiting, but that’s a story for another time.

My weight is the last thing on my mind at the moment.

I’ve been told there’s something wrong with my brain.

I went for an eye test, which they found something. Which lead me to an eye specialist. Which is now leading me to an MRI scan, because they think I could have fluid on my brain or it could be a tumour. Which will lead me to a spinal tap or *who knows*.

Supposedly, if I do not find what is swelling the discs in my eyes, it will lead me to haemorrhage and go completely blind.

I went to my GP to rule out diabetes as a possible cause, and had to get a blood test to check everything. So, I’m not sure how a nutritionist will help, when my blood test came up with no problems. Yes, I have put on a significant amount of weight in the past 12 months, fifteen kilos to be exact. But that’s ok, I don’t have any negative views on my body. My weight is the last thing on my mind.

There were some things we discussed, and she gave me some tips on how to maintain my weight instead of constantly gaining.

A therapist would be more helpful, I tried to tell my doctor but he wouldn’t listen. It made me think he thought ‘all girls PMS and are emotional’. But it’s much more than that.

Weight ‘struggle’ continues.




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